From a very early age, I knew that I needed to conform to those around me if I wanted to be unconditionally loved.
Don’t get me wrong, I never would have been allowed to starve. I always had plenty of food and a decent place to sleep. They were good to me that way.
It’s just that sometimes I was too loud, too obnoxious. And I needed to better regulate my emotions – at least that’s what they were constantly telling me.
I wasn’t much like the others growing up. But I always thought that their spirits had been too easily manipulated, too easily broken. I fought back.
Then I flunked out of school. I was too anxious to get on with my life. Besides, it all seemed so mechanical, so rote. Independent thinking is a curse.
I’m older now, and maybe a bit wiser. Mostly, I’m just content to sit here all day curled up on this couch, waiting.
Waiting to hear that rhetorical question that always makes my day.
The one that I now know the answer to.
Yes, me – I’m the good boy!
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